Well, It has been a while since I have felt like I had anything to say worth listening to...and who knows maybe no one is listening....so what.  I lost a friend a week ago and I have trying to compose so of my thoughts and feeling into a letter for his wife.  He was a very special man in my life and I had not seen him or spoken to him in quiet a while.  However,  I thought of him often.  He was my church minister for many years during my youth and early adulthood....He was the spirital listener, adviser, friend, and even sometimes a father figure,,,when I knew my own father did not know how to answer me.  He married my first husband and I ...and later in my life he married my present husband...He allowed me peace of mind so many times.  He made me laugh...at myself and sometimes at others.....but no matter what he was my friend and brother.   I am very sad that he is gone and I did not tell him how important he was to me or how much I truely loved him.   But, i know that great men such as himself, that are kind, gentle, loving, nonjudging, and spiritual are few and far between.   He will not be missed here because he left a longtime impression on my heart and I will never forget him.   I am proud to have known him and had the chance to be touched by him.   He is with the angels in his rightous placed with our Lord.

With all that out of my way I am ready to talk about something on a lighter note.......Projects... I have so many open projects going I do not have enough time in the day or night to get them finished so I am  going to list them each on a post it note and place in a box and draw from the box untill they are all completed.  Daily...I get so excited about one thing and forget how many other things I want to try and do...I can only say I love all kinds of art and sometimes just can not express my self enough with my hands or heart.  I get overwhelmed with all my ideas and thoughts and crazy.  Then I think it is not good enough for anyone else to see.   I just wish I could find the courage to step out of my box and let it all flow to show my love and excitement for such little things.  Most of all my family and friends.  I know how very lucky I am to have such a large circle around me...I wish everyone could feel what I feel for each other....but, I am just a little crazier than most....So if you are listening, or reading this  .....Know I love you and am glad you are in my life.     Our days are numbered and I dont want to waste any of them........So, Until we meet again....

Love your life...It is a very precious gift......Toni